Brother Jackson, it seems to me that you have yet to experience ILLUMINATION; you seem to still be functioning as though you believe The Watchtower Bible & Tract Society is Pure Worship™.
I have left garlic bread at the altar of The Flying Spaghetti Monster on your behalf. May you soon be embraced by His Noodley Appendages.
Let this strike your consciousness like Lightning from Thor's Hammer: The WTB&TS is a man-made CULT not much different from all the other religions and CULTS that the WTB&TS condemns as "False religion"! ALL religions are FALSE!
Wake Up, man!
LET GO of your faith-based speculations, expectations, hopes and dreams!
"Thus shall ye think of this fleeting world: A star at dawn, a bubble in a stream; A flash of lightning in a summer cloud; A flickering lamp, a phantom, and a dream."